I finally figured out a good way to explain why I find it difficult to come online and interact with you dear folk. With all the aches and pains in my muscles and joints and strange phenomena in my brain, I'm constantly overwhelmed by stimuli. Its as if my body is waging a Denial of Service attack on my brain. This line from the Wiki's definition is especially apt:One common method of attack involves saturating the target (victim) machine with external communications requests, such that it cannot respond to legitimate traffic, or responds so slowly as to be rendered effectively unavailable(Emphasis added).
I even have a hard time following simple conversation with the people around me, because the net effect of my brain issues, med side effects, and stimuli from my body just overwhelms me, and I can't think in or make sense of language.
Fortunately, this doesn't affect my ability to take pictures or video or work with them (well... what's going on with my brain does, but its transient) and I find getting absorbed in a project is often the best way to deal with the physical problems, since they still have neither found a cause nor a course of treatment which frees me of the overload of physical stimuli.
I'm trying to find new ways to do things, so I can come back online, respond to your comments, read your blogs. I've had some significant success in this with other areas of my life. I've been doing yard projects which are drastically less physically demanding than what I was doing before, yet are yielding spectacular results... they're the most beautiful I've ever done. I'll post pictures sometime. I hope I can work out a way to approach being online differently too, but until then, you'll continue to see the fruits of my creativity, but not much of me.
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